Thursday, April 15, 2010

Flipped upside down.

I can't believe its been so long since I last blogged! I'm having withdraws!! But I felt like it was time for me to catch you up on my life! Since I last wrote I feel like my life has been turned upside down!

On Good Friday, the Friday before Easter I headed home for the weekend to Huntsville with Matthew. Just past half way there I got a phone call from a number I didn't recognize, which I ignored because I was in the middle of Birmingham traffic and just couldn't deal with that at the moment. They left a voicemail so I listened to it. It was Brian from Hort, he said call him back asap and it was urgent. At this point I had no idea of what to expect- Surprisingly me and my negative self didn't jump right to it being negative. I thought maybe he had heard something about a job or something of that sort. I was WRONG.

I called him back just past Birmingham and listened to him on the phone. The truth is as I drove streams of tears were falling down my face- lots of them! He said, "Summer, you only have 119 hours." After that comment my mind went racing... 119 hours? How can that be... I'm currently enrolled in 17 hours which puts me at 121 hours, and ready to graduate. He explained that only 4 credit hours of PE classes went towards your degree, and I had 5. I was filled with disappointment. Something I had been counting on for quite a while now.... changed.

I exited soon after to let Matthew take over driving, poor guy having to deal with me for the next 2 hours and how ever long I decided it would take me to get over this. To say the least it ruined my Friday. I cried a while on the way home, but eventually got a little better. But now I had to tell my family. Right when we got to my house I told mom, I cried. We went to pick dad up at work 30 minutes later, I cried. I figured with telling people it had to get a little better every time. After dinner we went to watch Bob Jones softball with Wade and Amy. I told them and didn't cry, sweet success. I told Elizabeth that night and didn't cry, I thought I was on the verge of being over it.

To say the least I survived the weekend. It hit home again when someone at church on Sunday asked me, "So you're graduating this May, right?" Later we headed back to Auburn with a stop at the Watford house in Birmingham.

It's been hard. It's hard when people are telling you to be mad, and that Auburn shouldn't get away with this. And all I'm trying to do is work through it, and deal with it. I love my University, I really do- I hate to leave it on a bad note! I feel like in a way they abandoned me, I turned into another number at Auburn. I feel like they're saying, "Well you'll just graduate in August, no big deal, deal with it!"

When I got back on Sunday I knew I had one day to try and sort things out. To try and get some answers... to see if it was at all possible for a chance at May graduation. We were leaving at 2 for North Carolina. So Monday I went to class and packed and then ran around campus trying to work on my situation.

It was pretty nice to have a get away though. Off to the Biltmore in North Carolina and then Student Career Days in Atlanta.


Then I came back to the real world and the pressure of figuring out what I'm doing with my life. As of right now it looks like I will be living in Atlanta this summer interning with Chatham Landscaping (this will count as 4 credit hours) and graduating in August and then finding a job in Auburn. Don't get me wrong, I am excited... Excited to see what's in store for me because I know it will be great! Please keep me in your prayer as I continue to seek the Lords will for my life. It's been a stressful time but I know He is taking care of me and guiding me. (I will get final word today or tomorrow about graduation, and I have to accept then internship by Friday.)

"The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail." Isaiah 58:11

2 comments:

  1. I'll be praying for you Summer! I can't imagine and know this is a tough pill to swallow but I know that God has some amazing plan through all of this! And hey, I may come up during the weeks this summer and we can hang! :)

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  2. Praying for you Summer! Love you!

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